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I feel like I don't update this enough. And the only entries that seem to be up are the most angsty ones I have. Haha. I guess it's just because I have tumblr that I don't feel the need to update this. But, I'm alive. Haha.
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Eh?. . .Fuck you.
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I don't quite know when I started swearing so much. I'd like to blame it all on South Park, but I know that's not it. I just kinda feel slightly guarded. Even if I don't acknowledge it, I know it'll come up when I'm alone. And that's just what it's done.
I hate being alone, I end up thinking. Always thinking of things that send me off into a state of depression. The music makes it worse. Because even though I could turn it off, I don't. I won't. It calms me down. I just don't know.
I haven't felt like for awhile. So, it feels weird and familiar at the same time. I just don't want to be near people. They disgust me. Because, I can count the people I trust with everything on one hand. I guess that's excluding family. I don't know anymore. People are fake. Then again, it's not like I'm any different. I just feed into it. Whatever. I'm indecisive once again. That's a scary thing to be. On top of that, I'm anxious, nervous. For stupid shit. And most of you will roll your eyes but it still tugs at my heart. Because it still feels like I'm not worth anything, or anyone. Because everything I know about relationships was a lie. That's probably why even though I say I'll try to go after someone, I won't. Because I'm scared everything will repeat.
I tried my best the last time. So nothing will change. Because I wasn't good enough. I'm not good enough.
I hate being alone, I end up thinking. Always thinking of things that send me off into a state of depression. The music makes it worse. Because even though I could turn it off, I don't. I won't. It calms me down. I just don't know.
I haven't felt like for awhile. So, it feels weird and familiar at the same time. I just don't want to be near people. They disgust me. Because, I can count the people I trust with everything on one hand. I guess that's excluding family. I don't know anymore. People are fake. Then again, it's not like I'm any different. I just feed into it. Whatever. I'm indecisive once again. That's a scary thing to be. On top of that, I'm anxious, nervous. For stupid shit. And most of you will roll your eyes but it still tugs at my heart. Because it still feels like I'm not worth anything, or anyone. Because everything I know about relationships was a lie. That's probably why even though I say I'll try to go after someone, I won't. Because I'm scared everything will repeat.
I tried my best the last time. So nothing will change. Because I wasn't good enough. I'm not good enough.
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Lights, Camera, ACTION! Movies.
7 min read
CLASSIC DISNEY
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[x] 101 Dalmatians (1961)
[x] Alice in Wonderland (1951)
[x] Bambi (1942)
[x] Cinderella (1950)
[x] Dumbo (1941)
[x] Fantasia (1940)
[x] Lady and the Tramp (1955)
[x] Mary Poppins (1964)
[x] Peter Pan (1953)
[x] Pinocchio (1940)
[x] Sleeping Beauty (1959)
[x] Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937)
[ ] Song of the South (1946)
TOTAL: 10
DISNEY'S DARK AGE
------------------------------
[x] The Aristocats (1970)
[ ] Bedknobs & Broomsticks (1971)
[x] The Black Cauldron (1985)
[x] The Fox and the Hound (1981)
[x] The Great Mouse Detective (1986)
[x] The Jungle Book (1967)
[x] The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh (1977)
[x] Oliver and Company (1986)
[x] Pete's Dragon (1977)
[x] The Rescuers (1977)
[x] Robin Hood (1973)
[x] The Sword In The Stone (1963)
TOTAL: 11
THE DISNEY RENAISSANCE
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[x] Aladdin (1992)
[x] Beauty and the Beast (1991)
[x] A Goofy Movie (1995)
[x] Hercules (1997)
[x] The Hunchback of Notre Dame(1996)
[x] The Lion King (1994)
[x] The Little Mermaid (1989)
[x] Mulan (1998)
[x] Pocahontas (1995)
[x] The Rescuers Down Under (1990)
[x] Tarzan (1999)
TOTAL: 11
DISNEY'S MODERN AGE
-------------------------------
[x] Atlantis: The Lost Empire (2001)
[ ] Bolt (2008)
[x] Brother Bear (2003)
[ ] Chicken Little (2005)
[ ] Dinosaur (2000)
[x] The Emperor's New Groove (2000)
[ ] Enchanted (2007)
[x] Fantasia 2000 (2000)
[ ] Home on the Range (2004)
[x] Lilo & Stitch (2002)
[ ] Meet the Robinsons (2007)
[ ] The Princess and the Frog (2009)
[x] Treasure Planet (2002)
TOTAL: 6
PIXAR
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[x] A Bug's Life (1998)
[ ] Cars (2006)
[x] Finding Nemo (2003) [
[x] The Incredibles (2004)
[x] Monsters Inc. (2001)
[ ] Ratatouille (2007)
[x] Toy Story (1995)
[x] Toy Story 2 (1999)
[x] Wall-E (2008)
[x] Up (2009)
TOTAL: 8
DON BLUTH
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[x] All Dogs Go to Heaven (1989)
[x] An American Tail (1986)
[x] An American Tail: Fievel Goes West (1991)
[x] Anastasia (1997)
[x] The Land Before Time (1988)
[ ] The Pebble and the Penguin (1995)
[ ] Rock-a-Doodle (1991)
[x] The Secret of NIMH (1982)
[x] Thumbelina (1994)
[ ] Titan AE (2000)
[x] A Troll in Central Park (1994)
TOTAL: 8
CLAYMATION
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[ ] The Adventures of Mark Twain (1986)
[x] Chicken Run (2000)
[x] Corpse Bride (2005)
[x] James and the Giant Peach (1996)
[x] The Nightmare Before Christmas (1993)
[ ] Wallace & Grommet: The Curse of the Were-Rabbit (2005)
[x] Coraline (2009)
TOTAL: 5
CGI GLUT
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[x] Antz (1998)
[ ] Happy Feet (2006)
[ ] Kung Fu Panda (2008)
[ ] Madagascar (2005)
[x] Monster House (2006)
[ ] Over the Hedge (2006)
[ ] The Polar Express(2004)
[X] Shrek (2001)
[X] Shrek 2 (2004)
[X] Shrek The Third (2007)
[ ] Monsters vs. Aliens (2009)
TOTAL: 5
IMPORTS
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[x] Arabian Knight (aka The Thief and the Cobbler) (1995)
[ ] The Last Unicorn (1982)
[ ] Light Years (1988)
[ ] The Triplets of Belleville (2003)
[ ] Persepolis (2007)
[ ] Waltz With Bashir (2008)
[ ] Watership Down (1978)
[ ] When the Wind Blows (1988)
[ ] Yellow Submarine (1968)
TOTAL: 1
STUDIO GHIBLI/MIYAZAKI
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[ ] Grave of the Fireflies (1988)
[ ] Howl's Moving Castle (2004)
[ ] Kiki's Delivery Service (1989)
[ ] Laputa: Castle in the Sky (1986)
[ ] Lupin III: The Castle of Cagliostro (1979)
[ ] My Neighbors The Yamadas (1999)
[ ] My Neighbor Totoro (1993)
[ ] Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind (1984)
[ ] Only Yesterday (1991)
[ ] Pom Poko (Tanuki War) (1994)
[ ] Porco Rosso (1992)
[ ] Princess Mononoke (1999)
[ ] Spirited Away (2002)
[ ] Whisper of the Heart (1995)
[x] Ponyo on a Cliff by the Sea (2009)
[ ] The Cat Returns (2002)
TOTAL: 1
SATOSHI KON
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[] Millennium Actress (2001)
[] Paprika (2006)
[] Perfect Blue (1999)
[] Tokyo Godfathers (2003)
[] Memories - "Magnetic Rose" (1995)
TOTAL: 0
SHINKAI MAKOTO
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[ ] She and Her Cat (1999)
[ ] Voices of a Distant Star (2001)
[ ] The Place Promised in Our Early Days (2004)
[ ] 5 Centimeters per Second (2007)
TOTAL: 0
OTHER ANIME FILMS
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[ ] Akira (1989)
[ ] Appleseed (2004)
[ ] Appleseed: Ex Machina (2007)
[ ] Arcadia of My Youth (U.S. Title - Vengeance of the Space Pirate) (1982)
[ ] Cowboy Bebop: The Movie (2003)
[ ] The Dagger of Kamui (U.S. Title - Revenge of the Ninja Warrior) (1985)
[ ] Dirty Pair: Project Eden (1987)
[ ] End of Evangelion (1997)
[ ] Gundam Wing: Endless Waltz (1998)
[ ] Fist of the North Star (1986)
[ ] Galaxy Express 999 (1979)
[ ] Ghost in the Shell (1996)
[ ] The Girl Who Leapt Through Time (2006)
[ ] Lensman (1984)
[ ] Macross: Do You Remember Love (U.S. Title - Clash of the Bionoids) (1984)
[ ] Metropolis (2001)
[ ] Neo-Tokyo (1986)
[ ] Ninja Scroll (1993)
[ ] Patlabor the Movie (1989)
[ ] The Professional: Golgo 13 (1983)
[ ] Project A-ko (1986)
[ ] Robot Carnival (1987)
[ ] Robotech: The Shadow Chronicle (2006)
[ ] Silent Möbius (1991)
[ ] Space Adventure Cobra (1982)
[ ] Steamboy (2004)
[ ] Sword of the Stranger (2007)
[ ] Unico and the Island of Magic (1983)
[ ] Urotsukidoji: The Movie (1987)
[ ] Vampire Hunter D (1985)
[ ] Vampire Hunter D Bloodlust (2000)
[ ] Wings of Honneamise: Royal Space Force (1987)
TOTAL: 0
CARTOONS FOR GROWN-UPS
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[] American Pop (1981)
[] The Animatrix (2003)
[] Beavis & Butthead Do America (1996)
[] Cool World (1992)
[] Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within (2001)
[x] Final Fantasy: Advent Children (2005)
[] Fire & Ice (1983)
[] Fritz the Cat (1972)
[] Heavy Metal (1981)
[] Heavy Metal 2000 (2000)
[] Hey Good Lookin' (1982)
[] Lady Death (2004)
[] A Scanner Darkly (2006)
[x] South Park: Bigger, Longer & Uncut (1999)
[] Street Fight (Coonskin) (1975)
[] Waking Life (2001)
TOTAL: 2
OTHER ANIMATED MOVIES
-------------------------------
[x] Animal Farm (1954)
[ ] Animalympics (1980)
[ ] Aqua Teen Hunger Force Colon The Movie (2007)
[x] Batman Beyond: Return of the Joker
[x] The Brave Little Toaster (1988)
[ ] Bravestarr: The Movie (1988)
[x] Cats Don't Dance (1997)
[ ] Care Bears: The Movie (1985)
[x] Charlotte's Web (1973)
[x] FernGully (1992)
[ ] G.I. Joe: The Movie (1987)
[ ] Gobots: Battle of the Rock Lords (1986)
[ ] He-Man & She-Ra: The Secret of the Sword (1985)
[ ] The Hobbit (1977)
[x] The Iron Giant (1999)
[ ] Justice League: The New Frontier (2008)
[x] Lord of the Rings (1978)
[ ] Little Nemo: Adventures in Slumberland
[ ] My Little Pony: The Movie (1986)
[ ] Pink Floyd's The Wall (1982)
[x] The Prince of Egypt (1998)
[x] Powerpuff Girls: The Movie (2002)
[x] Quest For Camelot (1998)
[ ] Ringing Bell (1978)
[ ] The Road to El Dorado (2000)
[ ] Rock & Rule (1983)
[x] Space Jam (1996)
[ ] Starchaser: The Legend of Orin (1985)
[ ] Superman: Doomsday (2007)
[x] The Swan Princess (1994)
[ ] Transformers: The Movie
[ ] Wizards (1977)
[x] Who Framed Roger Rabbit (1988)
[ ] Wonder Woman (2009)
[x] Balto (1995)
[x] Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron (2002)
TOTAL: 16
GRAND TOTAL: 88
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[x] 101 Dalmatians (1961)
[x] Alice in Wonderland (1951)
[x] Bambi (1942)
[x] Cinderella (1950)
[x] Dumbo (1941)
[x] Fantasia (1940)
[x] Lady and the Tramp (1955)
[x] Mary Poppins (1964)
[x] Peter Pan (1953)
[x] Pinocchio (1940)
[x] Sleeping Beauty (1959)
[x] Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937)
[ ] Song of the South (1946)
TOTAL: 10
DISNEY'S DARK AGE
------------------------------
[x] The Aristocats (1970)
[ ] Bedknobs & Broomsticks (1971)
[x] The Black Cauldron (1985)
[x] The Fox and the Hound (1981)
[x] The Great Mouse Detective (1986)
[x] The Jungle Book (1967)
[x] The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh (1977)
[x] Oliver and Company (1986)
[x] Pete's Dragon (1977)
[x] The Rescuers (1977)
[x] Robin Hood (1973)
[x] The Sword In The Stone (1963)
TOTAL: 11
THE DISNEY RENAISSANCE
-------------------------------
[x] Aladdin (1992)
[x] Beauty and the Beast (1991)
[x] A Goofy Movie (1995)
[x] Hercules (1997)
[x] The Hunchback of Notre Dame(1996)
[x] The Lion King (1994)
[x] The Little Mermaid (1989)
[x] Mulan (1998)
[x] Pocahontas (1995)
[x] The Rescuers Down Under (1990)
[x] Tarzan (1999)
TOTAL: 11
DISNEY'S MODERN AGE
-------------------------------
[x] Atlantis: The Lost Empire (2001)
[ ] Bolt (2008)
[x] Brother Bear (2003)
[ ] Chicken Little (2005)
[ ] Dinosaur (2000)
[x] The Emperor's New Groove (2000)
[ ] Enchanted (2007)
[x] Fantasia 2000 (2000)
[ ] Home on the Range (2004)
[x] Lilo & Stitch (2002)
[ ] Meet the Robinsons (2007)
[ ] The Princess and the Frog (2009)
[x] Treasure Planet (2002)
TOTAL: 6
PIXAR
-------------------------------
[x] A Bug's Life (1998)
[ ] Cars (2006)
[x] Finding Nemo (2003) [
[x] The Incredibles (2004)
[x] Monsters Inc. (2001)
[ ] Ratatouille (2007)
[x] Toy Story (1995)
[x] Toy Story 2 (1999)
[x] Wall-E (2008)
[x] Up (2009)
TOTAL: 8
DON BLUTH
-------------------------------
[x] All Dogs Go to Heaven (1989)
[x] An American Tail (1986)
[x] An American Tail: Fievel Goes West (1991)
[x] Anastasia (1997)
[x] The Land Before Time (1988)
[ ] The Pebble and the Penguin (1995)
[ ] Rock-a-Doodle (1991)
[x] The Secret of NIMH (1982)
[x] Thumbelina (1994)
[ ] Titan AE (2000)
[x] A Troll in Central Park (1994)
TOTAL: 8
CLAYMATION
-------------------------------
[ ] The Adventures of Mark Twain (1986)
[x] Chicken Run (2000)
[x] Corpse Bride (2005)
[x] James and the Giant Peach (1996)
[x] The Nightmare Before Christmas (1993)
[ ] Wallace & Grommet: The Curse of the Were-Rabbit (2005)
[x] Coraline (2009)
TOTAL: 5
CGI GLUT
-------------------------------
[x] Antz (1998)
[ ] Happy Feet (2006)
[ ] Kung Fu Panda (2008)
[ ] Madagascar (2005)
[x] Monster House (2006)
[ ] Over the Hedge (2006)
[ ] The Polar Express(2004)
[X] Shrek (2001)
[X] Shrek 2 (2004)
[X] Shrek The Third (2007)
[ ] Monsters vs. Aliens (2009)
TOTAL: 5
IMPORTS
-------------------------------
[x] Arabian Knight (aka The Thief and the Cobbler) (1995)
[ ] The Last Unicorn (1982)
[ ] Light Years (1988)
[ ] The Triplets of Belleville (2003)
[ ] Persepolis (2007)
[ ] Waltz With Bashir (2008)
[ ] Watership Down (1978)
[ ] When the Wind Blows (1988)
[ ] Yellow Submarine (1968)
TOTAL: 1
STUDIO GHIBLI/MIYAZAKI
-------------------------------
[ ] Grave of the Fireflies (1988)
[ ] Howl's Moving Castle (2004)
[ ] Kiki's Delivery Service (1989)
[ ] Laputa: Castle in the Sky (1986)
[ ] Lupin III: The Castle of Cagliostro (1979)
[ ] My Neighbors The Yamadas (1999)
[ ] My Neighbor Totoro (1993)
[ ] Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind (1984)
[ ] Only Yesterday (1991)
[ ] Pom Poko (Tanuki War) (1994)
[ ] Porco Rosso (1992)
[ ] Princess Mononoke (1999)
[ ] Spirited Away (2002)
[ ] Whisper of the Heart (1995)
[x] Ponyo on a Cliff by the Sea (2009)
[ ] The Cat Returns (2002)
TOTAL: 1
SATOSHI KON
-------------------------------
[] Millennium Actress (2001)
[] Paprika (2006)
[] Perfect Blue (1999)
[] Tokyo Godfathers (2003)
[] Memories - "Magnetic Rose" (1995)
TOTAL: 0
SHINKAI MAKOTO
-------------------------------
[ ] She and Her Cat (1999)
[ ] Voices of a Distant Star (2001)
[ ] The Place Promised in Our Early Days (2004)
[ ] 5 Centimeters per Second (2007)
TOTAL: 0
OTHER ANIME FILMS
-------------------------------
[ ] Akira (1989)
[ ] Appleseed (2004)
[ ] Appleseed: Ex Machina (2007)
[ ] Arcadia of My Youth (U.S. Title - Vengeance of the Space Pirate) (1982)
[ ] Cowboy Bebop: The Movie (2003)
[ ] The Dagger of Kamui (U.S. Title - Revenge of the Ninja Warrior) (1985)
[ ] Dirty Pair: Project Eden (1987)
[ ] End of Evangelion (1997)
[ ] Gundam Wing: Endless Waltz (1998)
[ ] Fist of the North Star (1986)
[ ] Galaxy Express 999 (1979)
[ ] Ghost in the Shell (1996)
[ ] The Girl Who Leapt Through Time (2006)
[ ] Lensman (1984)
[ ] Macross: Do You Remember Love (U.S. Title - Clash of the Bionoids) (1984)
[ ] Metropolis (2001)
[ ] Neo-Tokyo (1986)
[ ] Ninja Scroll (1993)
[ ] Patlabor the Movie (1989)
[ ] The Professional: Golgo 13 (1983)
[ ] Project A-ko (1986)
[ ] Robot Carnival (1987)
[ ] Robotech: The Shadow Chronicle (2006)
[ ] Silent Möbius (1991)
[ ] Space Adventure Cobra (1982)
[ ] Steamboy (2004)
[ ] Sword of the Stranger (2007)
[ ] Unico and the Island of Magic (1983)
[ ] Urotsukidoji: The Movie (1987)
[ ] Vampire Hunter D (1985)
[ ] Vampire Hunter D Bloodlust (2000)
[ ] Wings of Honneamise: Royal Space Force (1987)
TOTAL: 0
CARTOONS FOR GROWN-UPS
-------------------------------
[] American Pop (1981)
[] The Animatrix (2003)
[] Beavis & Butthead Do America (1996)
[] Cool World (1992)
[] Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within (2001)
[x] Final Fantasy: Advent Children (2005)
[] Fire & Ice (1983)
[] Fritz the Cat (1972)
[] Heavy Metal (1981)
[] Heavy Metal 2000 (2000)
[] Hey Good Lookin' (1982)
[] Lady Death (2004)
[] A Scanner Darkly (2006)
[x] South Park: Bigger, Longer & Uncut (1999)
[] Street Fight (Coonskin) (1975)
[] Waking Life (2001)
TOTAL: 2
OTHER ANIMATED MOVIES
-------------------------------
[x] Animal Farm (1954)
[ ] Animalympics (1980)
[ ] Aqua Teen Hunger Force Colon The Movie (2007)
[x] Batman Beyond: Return of the Joker
[x] The Brave Little Toaster (1988)
[ ] Bravestarr: The Movie (1988)
[x] Cats Don't Dance (1997)
[ ] Care Bears: The Movie (1985)
[x] Charlotte's Web (1973)
[x] FernGully (1992)
[ ] G.I. Joe: The Movie (1987)
[ ] Gobots: Battle of the Rock Lords (1986)
[ ] He-Man & She-Ra: The Secret of the Sword (1985)
[ ] The Hobbit (1977)
[x] The Iron Giant (1999)
[ ] Justice League: The New Frontier (2008)
[x] Lord of the Rings (1978)
[ ] Little Nemo: Adventures in Slumberland
[ ] My Little Pony: The Movie (1986)
[ ] Pink Floyd's The Wall (1982)
[x] The Prince of Egypt (1998)
[x] Powerpuff Girls: The Movie (2002)
[x] Quest For Camelot (1998)
[ ] Ringing Bell (1978)
[ ] The Road to El Dorado (2000)
[ ] Rock & Rule (1983)
[x] Space Jam (1996)
[ ] Starchaser: The Legend of Orin (1985)
[ ] Superman: Doomsday (2007)
[x] The Swan Princess (1994)
[ ] Transformers: The Movie
[ ] Wizards (1977)
[x] Who Framed Roger Rabbit (1988)
[ ] Wonder Woman (2009)
[x] Balto (1995)
[x] Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron (2002)
TOTAL: 16
GRAND TOTAL: 88
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Something about growing up.
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I have completely wrapped the thought of my ex around my brain for so long. Now it's apparent that the best thing for me to do would be: avoid him for awhile. It's not to be mean or because I'm mad about him liking my friend. I realized that, because of the person I am, I will never be over him, if I'm around him the way I am. So I have to distance myself. Already someone has told me "that's not good for your friendship." Well, I don't care. I have to worry about myself before I worry about my relationship with him. Selfish or not, that's just how I am. So maybe now, he'll learn to appreciate me for the person I am.
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AB '11?
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Blehh, when do I ever update this freakin thing? lawls.
Well, after thinking long and hard whether or not to go to AB this year and just hang out or go next year and cosplay. So I went with the most convenient and said next year !! Since, my dad gets discounts on the hotel, I'm deff staying there at the hotel. I know a few people who will most likely be staying with me~<3
As for who I would like to cosplay, it is as follows, in no specific:
Kenny~South Park
Peppermint Larry~The Marvelous Mis-Adventures of Flapjack
and either Dawn, May or Eevee~Pokemon.
The last one is depending on a certain someone ((Allie knows!!~<3))
Should be fun, since I'm getting money for my birthay, that's when I'll start shopping. Not to mention I am gonna start hunting for a job as soon as I hit sixteen.
Well that's all for now~
Well, after thinking long and hard whether or not to go to AB this year and just hang out or go next year and cosplay. So I went with the most convenient and said next year !! Since, my dad gets discounts on the hotel, I'm deff staying there at the hotel. I know a few people who will most likely be staying with me~<3
As for who I would like to cosplay, it is as follows, in no specific:
Kenny~South Park
Peppermint Larry~The Marvelous Mis-Adventures of Flapjack
and either Dawn, May or Eevee~Pokemon.
The last one is depending on a certain someone ((Allie knows!!~<3))
Should be fun, since I'm getting money for my birthay, that's when I'll start shopping. Not to mention I am gonna start hunting for a job as soon as I hit sixteen.
Well that's all for now~
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